It has been an entire year since I decided to start sharing my journey of faith on this blog. To give you some context, I have not had any social media since 2008, when I deleted my Bebo and Myspace accounts. It was challenging but essential for the identity crisis that I was experiencing as a teenager and other family matters.
Over the years, as Facebook’s like button took over the internet, so did my dislike for Facebook in general. I have never had a personal account, and a family member tried to set one up for me, which I was not too thrilled about, so it was deleted.
I remember going to dinner with some friends. It was dead silent and not because everyone was eating their food. It was mainly because everyone was on social media, and I sat there most of the night looking at everyone looking at their phones. I would regularly get a hard time not having social media. It became a little embarrassing telling people I didn’t have Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, Twitter, or any social media account.
People would look at me like I had 3 heads and think I was so weird, which is okay. After all, I guess I am. I would always be told to get social media and that I am missing out… And at times, I struggled without it because the truth is not being on social media was sometimes isolating. As years went on, everyone realised I was not joining the social media train anytime soon and respected my decision. In hindsight, I never needed social media for people to know how I was going or what I was doing because I would constantly get this line…
‘oh I saw you on *insert name* social media account so how was *insert what they saw*?’GINSFAITH
And it is something I have always struggled with because part of the reason I do not have social media is that I am a private person. A family member recently told me they saw me in the background of a video on Instagram. At my local gym, a girl recorded herself working out while I was in the background, looking like I was about to pass out from fatigue and drenched in sweat.
I guess what I am trying to say is life is challenging enough for me without the influence of social media. I know there would be plenty of positives with using social media, like connecting with people online. I guess I have always believed that if people really care about how you are truly going and want to stay connected or be in your life, they would simply call/text you personally to catch up. I guess as social media continues to dominate society, the people who once urged me to get on social media are now telling me that not having it is a blessing and a good thing.
On the other hand, maybe I am a little too guarded with my personal world? I also think a contributing factor to not rejoining the social media space is experiencing the superficial reality. Or am I justifying it by saying it is wisdom, but maybe it is fear of it too? Maybe in the near future, I may rejoin social media? It depends, but when I do, I will let you all know.
I guess I have always struggled to share my journey with people in my world because it is often hard to articulate. The perfect example is sharing this blog. I do believe God has been working in this area of my life this past year. I also know he has wanted me to be open about my blog because only 4 people in my real life know about GINSFAITH. So I have asked them to keep it private whilst I navigate how and when I will share it.
I am well aware the year is 2021, where social media is a norm, and I need to embrace it for what it is! However, I have also realised that God had truly given me the strength to navigate life without it for 13 years when I once thought I couldn’t live without it.
Love G x